Tuesday, May 30, 2006

What are you thinking about? nothing, really, nothing

I've been in a reflective state of late, without actually reflecting on anything. I've been really thoughtful, but my mind is empty. Some of you are confused, some of you completely understand. I used to not like these moments, times, and sometimes seasons, at all. I like having my mind full of thoughts and craziness and sometimes poignant and sometimes gross and sometimes touching and sometimes... well you get what I'm saying. When I feel shut down like I have the last few days I can begin to feel a little depressed. Now add onto that the cold medicine I've been taking and presto, I've stepped into the phone booth and become..."stare at wall or tv blankly man". Long name, I know. Over the last few months since I started blogging, I've had a place to post the chaotic ramblings of my mind. This has made me miss those ramblings more than usual.

Tonight I got a brief insight during a conversation with my bride that has potentially changed the way I see these times. We were both yawning at some ridiculously early hour of the night, ready to go to sleep, and we wondered if we would ever be lively again. Then it hit me. Since she was done teaching for the summer, joined with the fact that our son is letting us sleep later, maybe we're actually catching up on a little rest. Now, grant it, my son doesn't sleep through the night, but he is generally staying in his crib for 12 hours. Since she has been out of school, we've been staying in our "crib" most of that same time. More sleep than we've had in a year...and we're both exhausted! I know you know of this phenomenon, you get more sleep, you feel more tired. But here's the point I'm slowly creeping up on. Maybe instead of being depressed by the quietness of my mind, I should embrace it as a time of God given rest. If little warrior is going to give us the opportunity to catch up on some sleep and rest, then, stop freakin' complaining and just sleep! It'll all even out, and I will be better off for it.

Now, for those who believe you know how to ramble, look at all I just said without really having anything to say. It's a gift, I know. I'm gonna crash now. Good night.

7 comments:

LiteratureLover said...

You crack me up! I love your ramblings. Keep them coming.

zephyrsbound said...

I can totally relate to the more sleep more tired issue(...what is that about anyway?), and to the issue of nothingness of the mind. Maybe it is a place to "Be still and know that I am God"....

LauraAnne said...

dude, i'm like in years of reflective but empty state of mind...i used to read and write all the time. short stories, poems, even started on a novel (made it to 124 pages), but that all sorta subsided when i started out on the road. sometimes my 'phrasing' still comes, but i rarely write it down. i have tried to read more literature (finished gb shaw's Joan of ARc) in hopes that it will spark something.

my body wont let me sleep too much...its kinda binge/purge. if i sleep too much during the week, i'll have a hard time falling asleep one night and wake up early in the morning. ugh. ~JM

SuperMom said...

I read an interesting article while we waited in the doctor's offices this morning. It said men's brains were able to literally shut down and think about nothing.

I find that fascinating. Mildly disturbing, but fascinating.

thebarefootpoet said...

JM- my wife thinks I'm years in the empty reflective state of mind as well. I'm certain she's right.

Supermom- told ya! nobody believes it but we can, do, and sometimes without trying or even realizing it. Just bam! and the brain is off. What was I saying?

ampguy said...

Dude! There is always an up-side..for instance, you could look like a Wookiee! Wouldn't that suck? Now...go ta bed!!

thebarefootpoet said...

ampguy, is that you, my friend? I do often smell like a wookie...